ma newRoutine

im officially a part-time BBsitter now…lets see how Different ma life had TURN

0630 Mum will send Rania to me, coz she’ll be crying “Nak Aunty.Aya, Nak Aunty.Aya” thus i have to let her sleep n minum susu in ma room

0745 Wake up Tina, let her get MilkDosing, than let Bibik mandi her up and prepare for school

0815 Took Si kenet Rania mandi (so hard k since her right hand patah..*added with her buat2 nangis konon tgn sakit gile and xnak basuh rambut blablabla) and get her dressed

0830 Let Rania&Tina having their breakfast and “Adik nak Melo Aunty.Aya!!” than pack Tina’s bekal (since bln posa so school xkasi makan)

0850 Send Tina to school..bwk si kenet Rania pusing and send her back home

0905 Drove to Work……*sambil layan lagu best2 meRELEASE stress* now im free from Babies CRYyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

1500 Picked up Tina from school…

1600 Helped Tina with her homework…and layan si Rania making her own ArtCraft (menconteng dinding n lantai *duh kiddos)

1800 Gets the kiddos bath, bibik done w Tina and me have to do Rania since she xnak langsung w BIBIK!!!!!! *Stress*

1830 Bring both kiddos pusing2 shah alam…tgk bird, monkey and on

1915 Buka posa…along w kiddos yg mcm2 krenah nak mkn sendiri and kecah satu dapur…

2000 Ok Cartoooooooooooooooooooooooon time….

2045 Tv Off….Lights Off *time to paksa Both kiddos tido* yeahhhhhh

2130 Finally i have ma own Sweet Relaxing Time!!!

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ok ok …wat make me pissOff last nyte was!!! izit logik for their aunty (ma bro In sist) to came ma house at 2130 coz nak kasi her daughter to play with ma nieces??? Urggghhh cant she understand that other ppl have their life oso to proceed??

somemore Irretating…as bibik told her that both kiddos sleeping upstairs, she came in n went straight  to the tv room to chck out either the babies assleep or not!!! “kesian aida dtg nak main with kak.tina and adik but xdapat…hmmm napa mlm nie tido awal” SaiKos BODO nya* Tina school kan 2mrw…and for sure ill put both of them to sleep early so i can Relax!

 puhleezzzzzz…ok so wat will i do?? ill call her 8er after work and ask her to pick Tina this weekend and she can take care of her..somemore Tina’s having her end year exams, so sila2 la pandai2 ajar bdk tu kan…hahaha and me??? ill be bit release this weekend coz juz Rania krenah to be attend…

Selamat Berpuasa

Everybody started their Ramadhan with terawih at the mosque while me???? im stuck at home bb sitting ma 2nieces (5&2yrs old) since their parents&brother went for Umrah….geee wat make kids doesnt want the Maid???Bibik apa kamu buat to her??Dera ke??pukul ke?  it makes ma life miserable k..nak2 with Raneeya broken hand…make it tuffer for me to handle her kerenah!!!! anyhow anywhere…i have to jaga oso,so mak have the chance to continuer her usual Ramadhan routine..as for me??? be a responsible daughter and aunty ****** Allah please make me strong…please make me passion too to all ma fren…BUKA POSA TREAT??? im free starting next weekend so lets plan makan2…for now Happy Ramadhan, semoga kita semua diberkati Allah s.w.t

cLueLess

The worst has been revealed. I tried to accept the cons and give it another try, but then its to painful and i am weaker and weaker. Each time I try to get up, I fall. Each time I start to smile, I’ll end up crying. Each time I try to be happy, I’ll get upset. Is Allah trying to tell me something?

I’ve always thought that I’m not worthy enough, but I submerge the feeling hoping that one day, I will be of some worth. So many things has happen to suggest that I get out, but I make excuses to stay. Everyday, I hope and I pray that a reason will come along for me to stay. But I can’t anymore. The pain is unbearable. And I’ve ran out of reasons…